The WS Mental Health and Empathy Thread

[Road Runner]

I was worried about Christmas this year. Thanksgiving was somewhat manageable given it was spent with 20 members of the extended family.

I survived Christmas. Gifts with my Dad and brother was fine. Decided to go to church (was debating going to work today just to do something but church was a better option). Then did fuck all the rest of the day until dinnertime. Honestly that's not unlike other years, but the difference is my Mom would be here.

I miss her. She loved Christmas.

My Thanksgiving this year might be my last with my grandparents. My grandfather turns 91 next year and my grandmother is closing into her 90th birthday. My Christmases the past five years have been tough on me because in 2019, one of my dogs died close to Christmas.

 

[Doom]

I fucking hate my mom. I'm getting so goddamn fed up getting her fucking beer and shit, and having to see her slowly killing herself taking pills and drink them. Every fucking day I have to sit at home, see her doing this to herself. It's been a decade of this shit and I'm so fucking tired of it. Me and her got in a fight on New Year's Day because I said I was gonna get her her beer, but my sister called me asked me to hang out. She bitched at me because I didn't go sooner and that's where it went South. I get so goddamn fed up with this shit every fucking day with no end in sight. This is why I've became an alcoholic because of the fucking bitch. My anger issues has grown too. I swear, at times I just wish if I was a female I would beat the fuck out of her and watch her bleed. And this morning, when I was sleeping, she put a $20 bill and a note to get her beer because the bitch's too goddamn lazy to drive her truck to the store. She has a fucking truck, A FUCKING TRUCK!!! I'm not her fucking husband, I'm not her slave, I'm her son and all of this has greatly damaged my mental health with no end. I seriously need to put my foot down and tell her this shit, because I can't fucking take it anymore!