The WS Mental Health and Empathy Thread

[Boomhauer]

I was worried about Christmas this year. Thanksgiving was somewhat manageable given it was spent with 20 members of the extended family.

I survived Christmas. Gifts with my Dad and brother was fine. Decided to go to church (was debating going to work today just to do something but church was a better option). Then did fuck all the rest of the day until dinnertime. Honestly that's not unlike other years, but the difference is my Mom would be here.

I miss her. She loved Christmas.

My Thanksgiving this year might be my last with my grandparents. My grandfather turns 91 next year and my grandmother is closing into her 90th birthday. My Christmases the past five years have been tough on me because in 2019, one of my dogs died close to Christmas.

 

[Wolverine]

I fucking hate my mom. I'm getting so goddamn fed up getting her fucking beer and shit, and having to see her slowly killing herself taking pills and drink them. Every fucking day I have to sit at home, see her doing this to herself. It's been a decade of this shit and I'm so fucking tired of it. Me and her got in a fight on New Year's Day because I said I was gonna get her her beer, but my sister called me asked me to hang out. She bitched at me because I didn't go sooner and that's where it went South. I get so goddamn fed up with this shit every fucking day with no end in sight. This is why I've became an alcoholic because of the fucking bitch. My anger issues has grown too. I swear, at times I just wish if I was a female I would beat the fuck out of her and watch her bleed. And this morning, when I was sleeping, she put a $20 bill and a note to get her beer because the bitch's too goddamn lazy to drive her truck to the store. She has a fucking truck, A FUCKING TRUCK!!! I'm not her fucking husband, I'm not her slave, I'm her son and all of this has greatly damaged my mental health with no end. I seriously need to put my foot down and tell her this shit, because I can't fucking take it anymore!

 

[Wolverine]

I want to apologize to everyone on the forum for venting in this thread. It's a all-time low for me when I said all those horrible things.

This thread is for people who have mental health problems and it should be that way.

 

[Storm Trooper]

I want to apologize to everyone on the forum for venting in this thread. It's a all-time low for me when I said all those horrible things.

This thread is for people who have mental health problems and it should be that way.

You have no need to apologize. you needed to vent.

Hope you're doing OK my friend.

 

[Boomhauer]

I fucking hate my mom. I'm getting so goddamn fed up getting her fucking beer and shit, and having to see her slowly killing herself taking pills and drink them. Every fucking day I have to sit at home, see her doing this to herself. It's been a decade of this shit and I'm so fucking tired of it. Me and her got in a fight on New Year's Day because I said I was gonna get her her beer, but my sister called me asked me to hang out. She bitched at me because I didn't go sooner and that's where it went South. I get so goddamn fed up with this shit every fucking day with no end in sight. This is why I've became an alcoholic because of the fucking bitch. My anger issues has grown too. I swear, at times I just wish if I was a female I would beat the fuck out of her and watch her bleed. And this morning, when I was sleeping, she put a $20 bill and a note to get her beer because the bitch's too goddamn lazy to drive her truck to the store. She has a fucking truck, A FUCKING TRUCK!!! I'm not her fucking husband, I'm not her slave, I'm her son and all of this has greatly damaged my mental health with no end. I seriously need to put my foot down and tell her this shit, because I can't fucking take it anymore!

One of my uncles is slowly killing himself with opioids. He looks like he is in his 90s. But he is probably in his mid 60s

 

[Skyefire]

Today marked one year since my mom passed away. I spent a good chunk of the day watching The Simpsons because she knew I loved it and, while she wouldn't admit it, she liked watching it with me.

 

[blargoblargo]

I fucking hate my mom. I'm getting so goddamn fed up getting her fucking beer and shit, and having to see her slowly killing herself taking pills and drink them. Every fucking day I have to sit at home, see her doing this to herself. It's been a decade of this shit and I'm so fucking tired of it. Me and her got in a fight on New Year's Day because I said I was gonna get her her beer, but my sister called me asked me to hang out. She bitched at me because I didn't go sooner and that's where it went South. I get so goddamn fed up with this shit every fucking day with no end in sight. This is why I've became an alcoholic because of the fucking bitch. My anger issues has grown too. I swear, at times I just wish if I was a female I would beat the fuck out of her and watch her bleed. And this morning, when I was sleeping, she put a $20 bill and a note to get her beer because the bitch's too goddamn lazy to drive her truck to the store. She has a fucking truck, A FUCKING TRUCK!!! I'm not her fucking husband, I'm not her slave, I'm her son and all of this has greatly damaged my mental health with no end. I seriously need to put my foot down and tell her this shit, because I can't fucking take it anymore!

You should both try SMART Recovery.

 

[Wolverine]

I've been worn out mentally, I just can't take it anymore. All the moving, forum stuff and work has been driving me fucking crazy. It's hard to keep track of one thing without having other things on your mind. I'm trying my hardest to make people happy and make myself happy, but it's hard to maintain it everyday, because of the situation that I'm in and I hate it. I need to take a few days off or more for the forum to get myself adjusted. I love you all.

 

[Kairi HoHo]

Yeah a crazy past few Weeks for myself. I've been working pretty much all day till today and had to move from the Motel my Mom and I were at for the past 4 or 5 Months. She was apart of a program they were paying it till they got pretty much got her Section 8 but they have been giving her the run around for Years now. Before we went there I told them I'm not worrying about a few Weeks or even a Month I'm worrying about Months down the line then what. I was told don't worry we'll take care of you'll never have to worry about the Motel money again. Well let's say a Month or so ago just before my Brother Luis came to visit from NY they said we can't pay any longer a day before it would needed to be paid. I've personally given them $700 Dollars or more in that time never got a receipt for any of that but we did so to show we aren't taking an advantage of your program.

So they stopped paying and my Mom had to go to the State to a get a Voucher and it lasted 3 Weeks. Well she goes today and it's the 3rd Week so the Social Worker calls the people at the Motel and they accepted it. My Mom comes back and they nope for no reason at all. The Room we had was clean as hell everything in place and the girl who said otherwise has been in our Room multiple times when we had Internet problems Months ago. So she says no even though someone there said yes and now were like where do we go now? So we are thinking okay tomorrow we can leave and were going to get help from the program my Mom is apart of to go to the new Motel we are at right now. So that changes hours later they want us out today for no reason at all and my God I'm shocked how cool my Mother was all through this. Lucky my Dad has a Work Van so my Brother Anthony came with his GF and we got everything together to this much smaller room.

I want to get a 2nd job around here but not knowing where I might be in a Week or two puts a hamper on that. I'm already working with Flu like symptoms and I got work the next few days with my Dad. Even 400 or 500 bucks really does nothing for me because I know eventually work is going to get slow and we are going to be worrying about the motel rent again. I told my Mom as I'm sleeping as hell right now that the progams she's apart of need to get on it and get her a place within the next few Weeks. I've never heard of a program puttign someone somewhere knowing that person can't afford it on their own or the help with their Son consistently and they just stop paying never giving a reason nor did they help her find a place putting that person in a better situation.

 

[White Rhyno]

I hope things better Wolvie and HoHo

 

[Tommy Shelby]

I don't like posting much about others who have a lot going on in life but my prayers go out to guys who've posted recently. Keep thinking positively even when you're at a low points. Can only go off my own and things get better. Just takes time and with that will come a healing process for one to deal with in your own way. One day at a time .

 

[Wolverine]

Hey folks.

It's great to be back after a week off from the forum. It's still been very exhausting with all the unpacking at home, work, my Mom's annoyance and such, but at least it's getting there. I've over-exaggerated about the place. It's far from what I've imagined. Both me and my Mom overlooked it because there's a lot of flaws. You have to see it.

On the positive side, at least we're slowing making this place home, despite it looking like shit. The rent's cheaper. I'm really trying to stay positive getting used to the place, because we have a one-year lease before we'll have to move once again. That's a good thing because I will never live in a worn out POS trailer ever again once we get the fuck out of here lol

 

[White Rhyno]

Working for the Department of Defense is really tough right now. A lot of the men and women I served with have been let go by other agencies. It is a very sad and frustrating situation watching men and women that have dedicated their lives to serving our country get a haphazard email that says they are not needed when there is little doubt that they are.

I get cutting government waste, but just randomly firing people without having a clue about what they do or the effect it will have just crushes morale. In one form or another, I've served my country as both a soldier and government employee for the last 20 years. I'm not what the future holds. I'll be fine regardless, but I hate leaving my office in bad place. They are good people that sacrifice a lot. We keep getting messages that we will have to do "more with less", but that isn't how things actually work. You can do Less with Less...expecting more is both unresonable and unsustainable.

 

[Grim]

So I take it you're not a fan of the Donald and Elon Experience.

 

[White Rhyno]

No. I'm not a fan.

I don't want to turn this thread into a political argument, however. This is just the effect these policies are having on me and the people I served with.