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Where do I start?
I'm in the worst mental space I've been in in almost 20 years. I'm being treated like shit at work (not by staff but damn pharmacy customers). I want to say I need a vacation but don't know if a vacation will help. It's unhealthy and there's no end in sight.
I caught myself thinking about the s-word today while at work dealing with all this shit. It's been 19 years (back then it was constant and incredibly serious, whereas this was more the thought was there and I shot it down). I'm not worried about acting on said thoughts and this was fleeting and shot down but even having those thoughts for any length of time scares the fuck out of me. Couple that with the feeling of needing a drink when I get home from work every night is making me start to get real worried (note I consciously chose not to consume alcohol after work for this very purpose).