An incredibly shitty day; the girl I like, I saw her when I was walking to school (first time, too!) and she was really somber when I said "Hi" to her from afar. Some guy was walking away from her from what I saw, and then, later on in the day, I saw her again. She waved at me, but she was frowning while doing so. Then, it all hit me; the guy walking away from her earlier on was her boyfriend. She was late to 7th period, and she walked to the far end of the class, sat down alone, and put her head down. I heard sniffing, and I went over to her and she was crying, man. It was rather infectious; her sadness made me all awkward inside, like an aching heart. I asked her if she was okay, she shook her head while crying. I then asked her if she wanted to talk about it, she shook her head once more. Finally, because of her refusal, I simply told her, "If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you," and I touched her hand, and quietly walked away. She knodded as I said those words, and one of my other friends began trying to ger her to talk because I had to go sit down. At the end of the day, I asked him, "What did she say," and he said, "She has a cold. That's why." I told him straight up, "Then why is she crying? She wouldn't be crying if she had a simple cold." I was kinda pissed because no one was telling me anything. Finally, when we left the class, I just kinda walked slow as one of the girl's friends came up to her and consulted her as they walked away. My friend from earlier came to me and set me aside, and I overheard her and her friend talking about "love" and "boyfriend" as she was crying, something about her not remembering something or other. I couldn't quite make out the words. My friend, like I said, set me aside and I asked him, "It was about her boyfriend, wasn't it?" and he just said, "Yeah, it was."
He asked me, "Why do you care so much?" I told him, "I like this girl." He sorta nodded, and said, "Oh..." and we kinda parted ways. As I departed, he said he wasn't going to tell her, and jokingly, he said if we ever got together, and I hurt her in anyway, he'd come after me. I simply yelled out, "I'd never hurt a woman," and that was the end of it. I felt so damn helpless as I saw her cry, made me feel really crappy inside. She didn't confide in me, she did sorta confide in my friend, though. I feel like crap. Normally, she makes my day. My apparent helplessless has ruined my day. The worse day I've had in a long time, TBH.
