Doom
I hate you are feeling this way. I've been behind in life since the day I was born and looked out at my friends & just watched them thrive as I stagnated.
Anxiety and Depression are like cancer. They never go away. They may go into remission for a little while, but they are always going to be there in the background no matter how great life gets.
When its not great....Oh boy. I don't need to tell you how hard it is to get through that slog.
Just know that people NEED you in their lives. Even in this little world of forums, you are beloved. Every banner, every grphic, the sports section.... You may be that ray of kindness that keeps someone else going. It seems very little and slight in comparison to what you think you see others doing, but its everything to one person.
Please know you are valued and loved. Hell, I LOVE you in the limited capacity I've had here. Just know that your current spot is not your final destination if you keep pushing forward. I swear.... Seriously.