It would have been so much easier if this was a guy who had very poor character all along, someone we hated, someone who would not surprise anyone by doing something like this. Or even someone we didn't really know much about, someone new.
But this is someone we've watched for so long, someone with deep, personal friendships within the business, with people who who knew him and his character for the last 15 years or so.
This act is completely contradictory to how this man lived the last 20 years of his life.
He loved that child, and obviously loved his wife for years. To go from what he had been for so long, to the person he was over the weekend is absolutely crazy. He had to have lost some serious mental, reasoning capabilities.
I still believe that he had a problem with the idea of his family falling apart, he wouldn't have been willing to accept a divorce and I also believe that once he killed Nancy for whatever reason, he had to make some big decisions regarding the fate of both Daniel and himself.
He knew he would have to go to prison for the rest of his life, as well as live with the shame and ridicule from his close friends, family and fans, destroying everything he had worked so hard to acheive in the last 20 years--he did work his ass off to get where he got in the business, that is not disputable.
With his mother dead and father in prison, being raised by who knows, also being aware of the shameful legacy left by his dad--in Benoit's mangled sick mind he thought it better for Daniel to just leave the world along with them. It was an unfair decision to make for this child, not his place to take away all chances for this boy.
I cannot imagine what was going through his mind when he decided to bind his wife's hands and feet and strangle her.
I cannot imagine how he held himself together long enough to smother his beloved child while he fought for his breath.
The fact that he placed the Bibles indicates that he absolutely knew he was doing the wrong thing and had some level of remorse.
I imagine that during their close friendship, Eddie told him quite a bit about God.
It is so sad to see the images of Chris gently kissing his son while knowing what he ultimately did to him. This is just so tragic on so many levels all around, and I wish the clock could be turned back, that Chris would have made different choices, reached out for help or something.
Once he did what he did to Nancy, there was no going back, and I cannot imagine the agonizing hours he spent with himself as he faced his new reality. In just that instant, after that one act, the last 20 years meant nothing anymore, and the bright future laid before him was gone in a flash. Just too bad, and just so sad.
I agree that WWE, in light of what we now know, should no longer honor or pay tribute to Chris Benoit. By leaving the world in this manner, he changed his legacy from what would have been so honorable to something completely dishonorable.
Just like that.