Letter from Lavender Haze (Nicole/Nikki)

[Grievous 3D]

Pagan means you believe in the old gods

Yeah...well...I'm a big fan of Lovecraft...so what can I say?

not so much being a pervert, lol. A pervert means...well just look in the mirror, lol.

Yeah...I don't do mirrors...

I can't stand my own reflection
& only use one to shave & style
my mohawk.

 

[Jacob Fox]

I was a pagan for a while and I still have some pagan beliefs. But the interesting thing about Hinduism is that it allows other religions to exist within it. So I consider myself a Christian under the umbrella religion of Hinduism.

And I am sorry for derailing your thread, @Just Kevin. I'll delete the posts if you want me to and put it back on track.

I am glad Hazy thinks she is doing great. But honestly, I am very worried about her.

 

[Grievous 3D]

And I am sorry for derailing your thread

That's actually my bad Jakey-Jake...so sorry for that @Just Kevin

Honestly...I hope Nikki will be okay...and while we did
have a few "disagreements" on here...I wish her nothing
but the best.

Although...it really sounds like she needs to "cut the chord"
& strike out on her own.

 

[Death Walker]

She needs someone to help her. The problem with this is, she would probably reject the help.

I did try my best to help her several times in private conversations and yes, I'll admit a few times that I gave her "tough love" but honesty to snap her out of her toxic reality and become more of a stronger, independent woman. I truly believe she is capable of overcoming this and many other situations but like Kevin said, she really have to be the one to push through this and hopefully with the good advice we all have provided her with she will. I hope she realizes what has happened as another example of why she has to GET OUT (no pun intended at all). I hate that she's going through this type of home environment and pray that she finds a solution out of this.

 

[Snowman1]

*applauds* Thank you for sharing this, Kevin.

We've all been worried about her... I remember the times she mentioned moving with her grandparents in TN, and I just froze up because it sounded like half of a sweet message and half a cry for help... This sounds like a whole mess of abuse, and while it seems like since her parents are so controlling she's been stuck in this little bubble and trying her best to find a way out somehow or another, why she always came across as playful as she did... It's hard to word, harder to explain, and thank you Kevin for fighting to get in touch with the gal. It sounds like she really needed this!

 

[Tyler2]

So I heard from Nicole yesterday on youtube. She was asking how you guys were doing and that she checks the forum every now and then as a guest

 

[Tyler2]

Nicole got a job and she's doing well

 

[CM Punk]

Nicole got a job and she's doing well :emoji_slight_smile:

i don't get it. how r u in contact and at that point, what's stopping her from just logging on if she lurks

 

[Tyler2]

i don't get it. how r u in contact and at that point, what's stopping her from just logging on if she lurks

She commented on my YouTube with a different name and then told me who it was. Maybe she's worried a little? She hasn't told me everything

 

[Tyler2]

This is a little of what she said to me on youtube

Ok... I'm really Loving My Job working at Bell stores Gas Station
And lastly, I don't "lurk". I Glance thru the Forum a minimum of 1-2 times a week

 

[Jeffry Mason]

So I heard from Nicole yesterday on youtube. She was asking how you guys were doing and that she checks the forum every now and then as a guest

She commented on one of my videos on there recently too, but by the time I got off work and clicked the notification, it had been deleted

 

[Tyler2]

She commented on one of my videos on there recently too, but by the time I got off work and clicked the notification, it had been deleted

Really? She commented on a few of mine

 

[RedDwarfTechy]

Wow, @Jacob Fox hit the nail on the head when she mentioned how messed up the situation is. I never really got close to Nicole, I found her quite spammy and had her on ignore for most of the time (I still might) but no one should go through this, the impact of this sort of parenting stunts the child and i'm just shocked that this still goes on in a place that has so much protection for children.

 

[Pop Tatari]

I talked to her in pm's on a weekly basis when she was on here, I knew something was not quite right. Felt there was some kind of control over her and was wondering why she kept making excuses to get a job, like she needed a car etc. I do hope she is ok? She is one of the nicest users on here, maybe too nice for her own good. I knew she was not happy but then who really is. This year has been pretty shitty for me. We do miss her presence on here, it is not the same.

 

[Tyler2]

Well she has a job now