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PART ONE
Halloween Night, October 31st, 2023.
Osaka, Japan
It is the evening of Halloween in Japan. The leaves around the city have begun to change colour as the evening begins to set and people begin to make their way out in costumes. Despite its usual traditions in the west around Trick-or-Treating, the day in Japan is more of a day for the adults to get into costume and go out to party. One person removed from the festivities is in her apartment. Sitting on a couch is a woman who has remained somewhat quiet from the public eye for a little over a week, at least in her usual public persona. Katsuki sits up on her couch with her right arm in a sling. Her top is off the shoulder, likely a choice to make wearing it easier. Just below her neck are some stitches, not for a costume, but surgery.
About a dozen days ago, the wrestler ended up having a fall in her own home, landing awkwardly on her shoulder. There was the sound of a crack and a sharp agonising pain, probably greater than anything she felt from a wrestling move. She would go to the hospital and would find out that her collar bone was fractured, resulting in surgery and over a week in hospital. If there is a blessing, she is able to rest her body for a few months, heal mentally and physically before making her way back into a ring. Even some of her fellow wrestlers in multiple companies have taken time to give her well wishes on a quick recovery. A large Koala plush sits on the couch, with a card from Ririko on the table. On a ledge behind her are a couple flowers, and a hand-drawn card from Trixie in FWA, suppose even with their differences as of late, something like this is just a reminder she cares. But, frustratedly, as she seemed to be within reach of multiple titles, a dumb move at home caused her career to come to a temporary halt. Taking some of her frustrations out, she squeezes a small stress ball in her hand, also a part of her rehab.
She has a bowl of popcorn in front of her, but she’s hardly touched it. Rather than watching something fitting for the time of year, like a scary movie, she’s watching through something that her mind has been stuck on, wrestling, though part of her wants to keep her mind off her main companies, with this showing footage from a company in Japan, DJPW. It is a multi-man tag as she sees two people in the ring wrestling. The first of which is someone she has heard of, Rio Kobayashi. Someone booked on an upcoming show she’s also booked on (Her recovery pending). He’s wrestling with someone from the other team, someone wearing a tiger-like mask. The announcers refer to him as ‘Tiger X’
Not alone in her apartment, there is an older woman finishing dishes in the kitchen. Her hair is greying and bears some resemblance to Katsuki. Her mother. After her daughter’s injury, the retired surgeon has taken some time to help take care of her daughter while she’s still in her early stages of recovery. She may not have initially supported her wrestling dreams, but after being distant for some time, she likely sees this as a chance to make-up for some of that lost time, to be there when her daughter needs it. She looks over to see her daughter somewhat spaced out on the couch, lost in thought. She dries the last dish and decides to walk over to the couch. She sits down on the opposite side. At first, she’s quiet, observing her daughter. The masked wrestler doesn’t even bat an eye as she sees the masked Hihoshi take a big dive to the outside, leaping over the ropes in a tope con hilo.
“Even though wrestling was never my thing, I can see why you were drawn to it.” She breaks the silence and comments. “That young man moves like a superhero.”
“That is the Jr. Heavyweight style.” Katsuki comments plainly. “It is what The Grand Tiger did, but these days it has grown to insane levels.”
“And you do that stuff too, I suppose.” Her mom tries to compliment her, seeing her daughter sort of monotonous. “Missing it already I see?”
“What makes you think that?” The Kitsune Warrior doesn’t even look back at her mom. She winces as she squeezes the ball before dropping it, her arm is weak and tired.
“You fixate a lot on something when it is on your mind. I noticed that since you were a child. You’re always fixated on something when you’re upset.”
“And?” Katsu looks at her mom. “It’s not like I was stupid and got hurt at home, putting my career with two wrestling companies on hold AND a special show which I might not even be able to make now.”
“You were not stupid. It was an accident and they happen all the time.” Her mom corrects her.
“So, not remembering a bathmat, falling backwards and slamming my shoulder into my bathtub, snapping my collarbone in the process is not at all my fault?” Katsu glares. Her mood is somewhat foul.
“Well, maybe you just learned a lesson to replace the mat when you put the other in the laundry.” She tries to spin it another way, but it does not make it an easy pill to swallow for her daughter. “I know you are frustrated. But, being hard on yourself is not going to get you healed sooner-”
“And what does that matter?!” Katsu raises her voice. “I already had to take a few months off before in FWA due to mental health.” She looks at her mom, “You know, the thing you said to me as a kid was ‘nothing to worry about’ and was ‘all in my head’ and that I should just step away and handle it on my own? That sound familiar to you? It was that thing I was only medicated for when I had left home. The thing I got during therapy which was arranged by that wrestling thing that you thought was stupid.”
Ouch, some old wounds opening up.
“It was how I was raised, young lady. I was a product of my time.” Her mom stresses. “Forgive me if I hadn’t known better.”
“But you should have!” Katsuki is not forgiving of her mom. “And now, I am gone for a few months again, this time due to me being stupid and getting injured. What will happen with me in FWA? Are they going to let me back? Won’t some people just take the time while I’m gone to talk ill of me, make sure that by the time I come back, everyone wishes I’d leave again.”
“There is no way that would happen.” Her mom tries to rationalise with her.
“Well, you never know… It’s possible.” Katsuki still has some paranoia, likely anxiety. “And what if I am back? I don’t know if Cali and Ririko will be there again because I know they have told me there are some ‘opportunities’ coming their way here. Then I’ll be on my own and I’ll hit another ceiling. I will do well for a bit, then hit a brick wall again. It happened twice before, and I know it will happen again.”
Katsu’s mom looks and notices her daughter’s breathing gets heavy. Her chest rises and falls as she breathes.
“My career is-”
“Take a deep breath…”
Her mom puts her arm on her good shoulder. Katsuki grits her teeth, upset. But her mom gives her a stern look and she relents. She inhales through her mouth, holding it for five seconds, just like what her doctor tells her, before exhaling for the same length of time through her mouth. She repeats it a couple times. Her mom asks.
“Anxiety acting up again?”
Katsuki looks to the side. “No… And even if I was, I have had worse than this.”
“Maybe take your pill?”
Her mother gets up and goes over to the kitchen table where a small orange bottle sits. She takes it over and opens it, pulling out a small pill that’s a cyan colour.
“I told you. I have had worse-”
“Still, I think maybe you need it right now. Just take it.”
Reluctantly, Katsuki grabs it with her good hand and places it in her mouth under her tongue. She closes and lets the medication dissolve and do its thing. She opens her mouth after it's dissolved, leaving a slightly bitter after-taste.
“How do you feel now?”
“You do know it does not act that fast? It’s quick, but not that quick. You are meant to be the doctor here.”
“Retired surgeon, thank you very much.” She corrects her daughter. “But you had a moment to breathe.”
“Okay, maybe it helped a little.” Katsuki looks down. “Being a wrestler is not easy, okay? Take being an athlete like Ryo, with twice the travel, no ‘off-season’ and it being more physical. Then add the fact that you can find criticism anywhere. Other wrestlers, fans, these ‘journalists’ and more. It’s so easy to become stressed, my anxiety takes over, or I have a bad stretch and it can lead to being depressed.”
“You signed up for it.” Her mom clarifies. “You may have been only in High school when you started, but you knew the challenges that would come.”
“I run into a brick wall metaphorically and I get dropped on my head for a living literally. And yet I think I’d still take it over what you did.”
Her mother has a small laugh. “Really now?”
“How many years did you go through schooling to be a surgeon?”
Her mom blinks. “Thirteen.”
“And how many men in your field made twice as much as you with half the experience?”
Silence from her mom.
“And how many family dinners did you leave because you got an emergency call when someone needed surgery? How many nights did your coworkers make you drink after a long shift even though you never drank? How many times did you work almost two days straight?”
“Why are you saying all this?” She asks her daughter.
“Because I’ve seen the world and I’ve seen what people like you go through. It should not be normal to always need to do that!” Katsuki takes a deep breath. “I just never thought I’d be happy doing that, ever. I did not want to study in a school for 13 years extra to, sure, make good money, but to never enjoy life.”
She turns to her mom, asking her.
“Why did you do it? Why did you want to be a surgeon?”
“-I wanted to help people. When I was a teen, your Grandfather had an accident and if it wasn’t for the surgeons who operated on him, you would not have met him. After I thanked them, the doctor showed me his scalpel and I got to hold it. He was kind and he was a hero to me. You had your wrestlers you watched as a kid, right?”
Katsuki nods. “They were sort of the people who made me happy. They were my heroes as a kid.”
“Well, he ended up being mine. So I studied to be a surgeon. It took a long time. I maybe was not there for you because your father didn’t want me to choose between a career and family if I didn’t want to. He knew I was passionate about my career, but knew we wanted to start a family. But maybe I under-estimated how easy it would be to balance?”
Getting closer to her daughter, she puts her hand on her good shoulder. She speaks gently to her.
“And I am sorry for that. I should have been there for you a lot more. Maybe I should have been more supportive? Let you choose your own career path, and go to a few more of Ryo’s games. But that’s in the past and we can’t change it. You can’t change the fact you’re injured. You can’t change any of those mistakes you made. But we can do something now. Right now I’m trying to be at your side when you need it. I’m hoping that you can be back on the road again soon, living your dreams.”
Some tears begin to form on Katsuki’s face. She nods slightly.
“And your wrestling comes with sacrifices too. You travel a lot. You have a risk of injury in the ring all the time. Don’t get me started on the long-term effects of your health wrestling, and I don’t think you’ve had much in terms of relationships, young lady, right?”
“One which lasted maybe four months in high school in Tokyo, didn’t go well.” She has a nervous laugh.
“So, no more being sad and hard on yourself. I know you are going through a rough time, and it will not be easy in the future, but we need to take some steps forward. Being a little more forgiving to yourself can be a first one.”
“Okay.” Katsuki sniffles. “If I couldn’t move my arm now, I’d give you a hug.”
“How about I make some tea instead?”
Her mom pats her on the shoulder as she nods in approval. Walking to the kitchen, her mom prepares the kettle. Katsuki turns to the Television as Rio Kobayashi has one of Tiger X’s partners in a pumphandle position. He scoops him up and slams him down on the mat with his finishing move. One… Two… Three! Katsuki grabs the remote and decides to turn off her TV.
She looks at her mom in the kitchen and gives her a smile.
-TO BE CONTINUED-