That's a fair enough response. I've gotten wind that these games have been super toxic and intense from way before I even came over here. Not going to call anyone out specifically but probably going back like 2-3 years I've heard people mention in games that it's intense over here.
I think Grim once told me, when he was being a little bit much in a game, that I wouldn't survive over here.
So I definitely made a judgement about this section, and have been avoiding it since I joined. But you yourself promised me it'd be a chill game this go around, and so I signed up. It's probably why I was really sensitive to Ultra and judged him super quick, and it's why I judged Jeff before knowing him. Part of that is on me, but I've been honest with the fact that since then I haven't really been proved those judgements are wrong.
And frankly, that's not even totally on this section, Jeff or the players, or you even. Like if this section is advertised as being like that where it's basically a locker room type environment with no holds barred, then that's what it is. But me? I get myself worked up. And either end up engaging like I did with Jeff and then feeling like absolute shit about myself because of it, or I overreact like I did with Ultra a few days ago.
So in all I can reflect and understand that this type of environment is not for me. But I do think that what kind of environment this section wants to be should be decided on and made known. Because going back and forth in that it's a chill place, but then also having it get intense like this sends mixed signals.