there was a time I decided i was gonna try to explain to the people who made me that I feel this certain way. let's just say, I was scared to do it to begin with. And when I finally got the courage. I got told to be a man. So, thats what I did. Kinda fucked up to hear your folks say that to you. So, I never was open again. To them anyway. And then that just grew to everyone more or less. This is why I never wanted to bring any kids into this world. Because I feel like I can't prepare my kids for a life without me. And, I would feel like a total piece of shit if I can't break the cycle. There, I said it.
