General Chit-Chat Thread - No Spoilers

[Petty]

me and smark have had plenty of conversations about me. And, I am in a mood tonight where I don't give a fuck about being candid about me. Wheras normally I remain guarded even off the net. I am less guarded on the net.

 

[Petty]

this is a different kind of black sheep.

 

[Petty]

this is one where I still don't understand it or the why.

 

[Petty]

I have given up trying to understand the why. because I never will.

 

[Vampire Quinn]

I only even used the net back in the day as a form of escape from reality anyway.

Yep, that sounds like Me. Though my Home Forum is like my Second E-Family. If it weren't for the ppl I've interacted with there for the past 4 yrs.... I wouldn't be where I am at Today.

 

[Petty]

Knowing me, and how good I am about escapism. I likely have all this shit locked away because of who knows why.

 

[Petty]

Well, I can't say anyone has helped me. because I used it as a coping mechism along with my drug abuse.

 

[Petty]

so chances are I have some shit only a shrink may be able to help with. And, I know I will never do it so chances are I'm never gonna fix whatever is wrong. And, I have accepted it.

 

[Vampire Quinn]

I have given up trying to understand the why. because I never will.

Sadly, Some things aren't meant to be understood. Or may not have an answer to and that's okay. Just gotta Keep Your head up and Continue on forward.

 

[Petty]

And, I have a good idea of what it is. And, its just what it is. My dad was a piece of shit who had a piece of shit for a dad and my mom was stupid enough to laid down with a piece of shit. that's it pretty much in a nutshell.

 

[Petty]

and it's because of seeing this I do not think I will have kids.,. despite wanting them because I be damned if that becomes my children's fate. Looks like I been dealt one hell of a hand. But, at the end of the day I have accepted the cards dealt. And, that's just that.

 

[Vampire Quinn]

And, I have a good idea of what it is. And, its just what it is. My dad was a piece of shit who had a piece of shit for a dad and my mom was stupid enough to laid down with a piece of shit. that's it pretty much in a nutshell.

wow... sounds like my own Dad. He was never there for me.. He wanted to give me away when I was sick and My Mother refused. They eventually Got divorced... a fairly quick one at that. Whenever I used to visit him as a child, he'd find ways to put me in harm's way. He'd drop me off in the middle of the road and I'd had to find my own way to the babysitter building or she'd have to call out for me.

 

[Petty]

I don't do fake shit. fake friends. fake relationships. I feel like anything that is gonna be detrimental to my peace of mind is just a waste of time.

 

[Petty]

well I can't say it is similar. I will not discuss because I do not feel like putting my dirty laundry out there for people to use against me. Because if people think they see bad me, that would really bring out the worst in me. And, I don't even want people to see that. lmao

 

[Petty]

and if anyone here has anything to say negative...you can kiss the dark part of my ass crack.