Last night, my uncle passed away from his quick, but painless battle with cancer. I'm overflowed with so many emotions right now. It just hurts, losing somebody you've loved for your entire life...
I'm a struggling and hopeful recovered hypochondriac.
I dont make up symptoms nor diseases. I feel something and I blow it way out of proportion. I wish it was that easy though.
For a long time I'd go to bed most nights thinking I wouldnt wake up. So far I've thought I've had:
COPD
Congestive Heart Failure
Heart attacks
Strokes
Lung Cancer
DVT (blood clot)
Slipped disc that will leave me paralyzed
And my latest is brain tumor.
I've been a hypochondriac for less than a year and it's only gotten worse with going to the doctor 3 times in a month and a half.
I'm a 27 year old sciatica bearer from bad posture who sometimes feels numbness in the leg from the sciatica (am going to a chiropractor to get xrays) from terrible posture for years.
Only recently have I been getting help through vitamins, making sure to wat fruits and veggies daily, yoga, meditation, and walking daily.
Never knew this would be as much of a struggle as it is. I'm getting chronic fatigue from it.
Sadly I pulled something in my back during yoga and my nerve from sciatica is starting to send tingles. So now I'm terrified again but I'm trying not to search google (7 day streak so far of mo symptom checking) and am just going to make an appointment to at least get an x-ray.
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How is therapy working for you?I really like the idea of this thread for support.
I'm 33 and have been struggling with depression and anxiety attacks since I was 15 years old. I coped, and still cope by self medicating with mj. I've finally started therapy a few months back, along with a low dose of serotonin inhibitor which was a very fucking scary decision as I am terrified of brain altering medications. It's been a slow process but I feel I'm starting to see some progress, and don't feel half as angry as before and have an easier time expressing myself effectively. Talking to people on wf mafia discord also helped a lot. I still have a ways to go, but I'm getting there. To all who are struggling, just keep trying one day at a time. Feel free to pm if you ever just want to chat or vent
Cheers and stay strong everyone.
Merry christmas
How is therapy working for you?
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This isn’t something I really talk about a lot but I really wanted to finally just share it and talk about it more.
I deal with Anxiety, which is a bitch sometimes. It makes it hard to deal with people, surely a big crowd of people. I do better with that when around people I know, it at least relaxes me more. But big crowds by myself and I couldn’t handle it. Sometimes it makes me take stuff to serious. Which is something I try my best to control but sometimes it’s hard. I’ve lost friends because of it, and it’s sucks.
I’m better than I was 10 years ago. Surely a lot better than I was 15 and 20 years ago. But I still struggle with it. I’ve grown a lot, and hopefully I can keep on with making myself better and keep with it.
Thanks for whoever reads this.