I am not to blame

[Daddy Deville]

The sounds still rang in my head
Violent symphony that has no end
The night I can never forget
Where my darkness fears
where the road would take

The truth of the matter is I wasn't born this way. I wasn't born to fuel the blood rage that now soaks in my veins I had goals. I wanted to be something. That was until you took it away from me. 20+ years of rage of depression of nights of screaming in my own head because I wanted to end it all. I fear I will never get passed it I fear in the end it will be my undoing and you are to blame for every scar on my skin for every single one that is drilled inside my head for the pills I took to the bottle that I clinch until the dawn breaks I blame you.

I feel like Atlas the weight of the world on my shoulders left alone with my own screams and wanting to just fade away into the blackness. I shouldn't hold a grudge but, I am in a consist state of an never ending loop like a dog chasing his tail.

You took away my family, you took away my will, you took away my innocence but, you also showed my how cold this world is what comes next to XWF is not my fault the blood is not on my hands that cross you will bear as their screams, their agony is the start before I finally find you before I can finally eat away the cancer of you and the god damn end of the war inside my head. ​