Randomness.

[monkeystyle]

So like, with the impending move coming up, I've been doing a little bit of reflection y'know, and I've totally hit an impasse.

Like this is going to sound totally arrogant on my part, but I dn't know if I can make it sound any other way but what the hell.

I'm a pretty smart guy, I grasp concepts easily, and am able to understand and remember what I am taught with very little effort. I feel like I stand on the bleeding edge of true genius but can't achieve it because of my innate apathy towards most things. Like I just don't care, and this is why psych pisses me off, because I would have all the ability in the world to help others but self diagnosis is impossible, and I'm the one I want to use it on.

Now I know I can go see someone myself to help through this mental block but there I encounter another problem. Its not the problem of seeing "help" that's helpful stuff and nothing to be ashamed of, this I know, but my ego prevents me form going because, of course, I can solve this problem myself. Right. Also my paranoia plays a bit of a factor as well because I don't necessarily trust another with my mind.

And of course the most frustrating part of all this is I know all this is true, and I have identified all the problems, but I can't set about solving them. Its like I think to myself that I can change the shit that I want to change, but then my apathy kicks in and says, well, that's just the way you are, leave it alone.

I dunno what I hope to achieve by posting this here. I've told my friends but I get the same useless subjective platitudes from them all. I dunno. Fucking frustrating.

 

[Wrestling Station]

This actually happens to so many people. The human mind sometimes get to the point of being right, even if its not truely.

1-Now i think what you can do is practice the "listening" theory. Try listen to others what they say (even if sometimes the topic itself is dumb).

2-Dont speak much. As a proverb states that silence equals gold.

3-Dont let your instincts control you. Try to always be in control.

4-When you reach that kind of state of mind, try read or search about complicated stuff. (aflaton?)

5-Try a labour kind of job that would humiliate yourself (lol just kidding).

 

[monkeystyle]

This actually happens to so many people. The human mind sometimes get to the point of being right, even if its not truely.

This I know, but I lack something, whatever it is to do something about it.

1-Now i think what you can do is practice the "listening" theory. Try listen to others what they say (even if sometimes the topic itself is dumb) .

This is something I need to try.

2-Dont speak much. As a proverb states that silence equals gold.

What gives you the impression I talk a lot

3-Dont let your instincts control you. Try to always be in control.

I think I'm in control, but I do listen to my instincts.

4-When you reach that kind of state of mind, try read or search about complicated stuff. (aflaton?)

I'm pretty much always reading that kind of stuff. Maybe I need to take a break instead?

5-Try a labour kind of job that would humiliate yourself (lol just kidding) .

The one thing I could never bring myself to do.

 

[McLovin]

Sorry to say but you do sound a tad bit arrogant. Joke.

 

[Italian Outsider]

lol...

you should start thinking that apathy isn't necessarly a shit.
Stoic philosophy teaches: (copied from wiki due to english limits)
The idea was to be free of suffering through apatheia (απαθεια) (Greek) or apathy, where apathy was understood in the ancient sense — being objective or having "clear judgment" — rather than simple indifference, as apathy implies today. Stoic apatheia is rather the maintenance of equanimity in the face of life's highs and lows - getting carried away by neither.

high school shit, see if it helps..

 

[monkeystyle]

I think I see.

Marcus Aurelius right?

Maybe I have some more reading to do.

As a side note, I wish they taught us anything like that in high school. Maybe because I went to a Catholic school.

 

[Italian Outsider]

I think I see.

Marcus Aurelius right?

Maybe I have some more reading to do.

nah.ancient greek stuff, tbh the only name i remember is Zeno of Citium, just go searching after Greek Stoicism, Epicureanism is worthy a reading too.

As a side note, I wish they taught us anything like that in high school. Maybe because I went to a Catholic school.

my high school was catholic too,and the philosophy teacher was a priest, still i always thought he was great.

i think it just depends on the instruction system,my high school courses were mostly oriented towards philosophy, history, arts and literature